weed...?

So I had a dream last night, it prettymuch came from the middle of nowhere. I have never smoked pot or anything for that matter, nor have I ever seriously thought about participating in such an action, 1: because I am not stupid, and 2: because my dad made that mistake enough times for the next four generations of our family. Anywho, that doesn't change the fact that I had a dream. I was looking for an apartment to rent driving around in Beaverton near the tj Maxx and pulled into a complex. The next thing I knew there was a lady and her two teen daughters -as white trash as they come- standing next to me. At some point the mother was handing out joints to us all and I just took it and lit er up like no tomorrow. It was like second nature, like I had done it a million times, and what scares me is that I had no conviction what-so-ever about it. I didn't give a rip that we were outside in the middle of a busy parking lot in broad daylight, I was just tokin it up...I couldn't get it fast enough. I sucked as hard and long as I could to make it burn faster cause I wanted it THAT INSTANT OR ELSE! I started feeling a tad woosey when it was about 4/5ths gone, and I didn't want to burn my fingers on the what was left, but I noticed the other ladies thinking it was all good to the last drop or something, so I asked the mum "do you wanna finish this off for me?" and she said sure and snaged it from me like she was gonna morph into a rabbid dog in two point six nanoseconds flat if anyone tried to get it instead of her. I decided I was going to keep my composure and not act like everyone else does when they are high, but my plan failed misserably. We started walking up the stairs towards the street tj Maxx is on, and on my way up I attempted to clasp my hands together like a normal bussiness proposing human being, but I missed and caught a thumb and a pinky. I then looked at my hands to try and figure out what the crap just happened and ended up tripping over my self and falling left, which made me for some reason, unbenounced to me, laugh hyserically. Once inside the store a butler of sorts was being snooty and told us we should go downstairs, we all laughed and followed his orders. I tried on two highly unattractive christmas sweaters and somehow completely forgot to take one off before leaving the store. After a few less memorable events I returned home. My mother showed me an add in the paper for highly unattractive christmas sweaters and went on and on about how I should go try them on at least because they would be adorable on me. I explained to her how I had already tried them on, and unzipping my jacket realized I still had one on, and proclaimed, "Oh...see? It's definately ugly." She asked if I bought it and I said no, I just forgot I had it on. She told me I should take it back, and for some reason I couldn't figure out if I was supposed to just put it back in the store or return it and get the cash...

It bothers me that I was so unconvicted about anything in that dream, it was like I had no morals, no God and no brain. I am not sure if it means anything, I'm thinking no...if anything its just a warning, but at the same time I think its hilarious because it is soooo beyond out of character for me to do anything like that.

My job hunt is sucking. I had a few places for office jobs that I was looking into, but yesterday I went to a seminar for the interior design program at PCC that I am trying to get into and they explained how they can't tell us what the schedual is like, other then they only typically only offer 1 section of each class every term and part are "daytime" and part are "nighttime". That means that I have no idea what time the classes I MUST take next term are going to be, so I don't know when I will be available to work starting January. I am not sure if I can have an office job now, even part time, because a class may fall on a day/time I am schedualed to work, and office jobs aren't flexable like retail. You aren't stupid, so I am sure you could have figured that all out on your own, but I really felt like explaining it. Anywho, if you just wanna pray that God will make it clear what I am supposed to do that would be great. I think at this point I am just going to apply for those 4 jobs tomorrow anyway, another coffee job, and maybe beg for my old job back and see what happens. I need to have a job sometime next week though, or else I stand the chance of my bills backing up...thats never good...plus I am so dang BOARD OUT OF MY MIND and sore from being lazy all day and oversleeping, I need something better to do straight away.