Help me with my poor decision making skills

Well now...aren't you in for a surprise or seven! I've had possibly life altering offers streaming to me for the last few days and I'm not exactly sure what to do about it. Just to remind you, Peet's management has been running me through the system up, down, backwards, sideways...and any other way they could think of. The kept giving me different stories, making me mourn the loss of my beloved position in the company, only to tell me yesterday that they were wrong every time. Apparently the true story is that I can be rehired at any Peet's location, including Bridgeport, at any time...no waiting period! Now you may be rejoicing at this fact, and I assure you I was dancing a delightful/victorious jig on the inside when the news was announced to me, and even the rest of the day I was bursting at the seems with excitement because of the victory I felt. However, it probably would have been more helpful information about 2 weeks ago when I began my search for employment, and was free of any other obligations or unimaginable cool alternative proposals. I am at a standstill. I have no idea what to do. I have been making such a fuss about getting back to Peet's every day of my life for the last three weeks, but now it really seems like the least exciting option I have...I am not saying anything bad about Peet's though, take not of that. My loyalty to them will forever remain, and everyone that I worked with and the superior product we created, and really just the company itself I still hold in the highest regards. I desperately miss the teamwork involved, the act of creating each piece of delectable art that I did, interacting with and serving the customers, and the sense of accomplishment and pride all us employees shared at the end of a busy day, but now I'm wondering since I've "been there, done that" if it's not just time to move on?

As of this last Monday, I am employed with Portland Kids International as an after school teacher's aide at Marcus Whitman Elementary. I work with 1st-3rd graders in the "homework club". For those of you who know Ben, you might have heard of this organization before. He worked for them and went to their church while he lived here. PKI also has kids camp during the summer, where Ben had invited me to volunteer. I did, and got connected, and that's where we know Chaz from too for those of you who were wondering. Anyway, they are always in need of people, and Chaz, Lori, Bob and Bev have all asked me at various points to come back and work with them so finally I decided it was the right move. I started on Monday and was a little shy at first, but many of the kids recognize me and remember my name already, and finally today I started really getting more comfortable at it. The first day a lot of the kids tried to pretend like they didn't know what they were doing. Naturally, it being "homework club" and all, they are supposed to work on there homework, and naturally, them being kids and all they don't want to. At first I didn't know how to handle those situations, then yesterday, my biggest problem was physical. There has been a lot going on over the years concerning whether or not teachers can touch children at all...the thing is, I am not the kind of person who can refrain from showing physical attention, especially to children who you can tell don't get enough of it at home or anywhere else. I know I'm not conceited and you should to, so I'm going to tell you all that I'm a very compassionate person, and I just can't hold it back from them. It reminds me of a verse in Hosea where God is saying that all his compassion is aroused...I can't see them and not have compassion, its just flat out not possible, especially for me. Even the annoying kids, I still want so badly to figure out why they act so shady...what on earth happened to them to make them react that way to a person who hasn't even been harsh on them? Why is there so much fear there? It makes me so mad and I just want to go fight off all their oppressors and pick them up and bring them into the fullness of the love of Christ. And for the little girls, I want each and every one of them to experience the worth that they have in Christ, their beauty in Him, I want them all to see themselves how he sees them...I could go on and on about this alone, but essentially the point is that I love this job and there is no way I want to leave it. As much as I felt success at Peet's, it's ten times more here. I love all the people I worked with at Peet's, and I know God has huge things He wants to do in their lives, but these kids are so important, and the whole entire point of this job is to get a hold of them and steer them and direct them, and they are amazingly receptive to it.

That all being said, here are the first two options I have: I can keep the job at PKI, and end up working probably only three or four days a week while also working part time at Peet's, or I can ditch the whole "making a come back at the time when they need a savior" thing and keep working for only PKI. As of right now, pay sucks because it only equates to about 15hours a week...but here's the thing, in early January, Lori, the gal who heads it up is leaving...and they need someone to fill her position. They have a person, but she doesn't even come on a regular basis, she is super quite, and doesn't really know how to handle the kids. This position would consist of the same hours I work right now, but would also include flexible hours to take care of some office work, and I would actually be the one responsible for making sure the whole thing runs smoothly. Oh, bonus: its salary pay...that definitely can't hurt me. However, the position doesn't start till January, and I am prettymuch dead broke...

Now, if you think you have it figured out, let me throw a wrench into it. If you can think back real hard, you may recall at least one of the four-hundred twenty-seven times I burst at the seams with love and awe for Colorado...do you remember that? It hasn't been that long ago...it's been fairly ongoing for the past three or four years. I had a chance to go this summer and I didn't take it, reason being I just started my job at Peet's. Well, I got a call from my aunt who lives in Evergreen Colorado tonight...her husband has been called back to work in January (he got furloughed from United a while back) my dad told her I got fired, and she offered for me to come live with her! Her and her husband have two boys, ages seven and ten, very intelligent/know how to have fun type kids. She was wondering if I was interested in prettymuch nannying them whenever they are gone...that means I get to live in their EXTREMELY nice three story house, in COLORADO for free (not my mom's house, definitely a +), get paid a MOTHERLOAD, go to school during the day, and care for the boys whenever they aren't at school when her and my uncle are both out of town...it sounds like an EXTREMELY sweet deal to me...the only thing is that, well, it is in Colorado, and that is not exactly close to most of you. The things that are making this decision hard are the DHOP, my PKI job, the fact that I finally figured out what I want to do for school, registered, and was really excited about going to PCC since its so dang big, and the fact that I would miss all my friends and the people I just started getting to know (no offense, you know who you are, you are my friends, I just don't know you very well and I would like to get to know you better since your so dang cool and different and whatnot all at the same time).

Anywho...I am struggling with this decision...all three have their positives and negatives. It would be nice to do something different, you know, get away, but I'm wondering if I just like it cause it sounds so novel. Peet's is a safe bet, and my mom would probably be miffed if I didn't pursue it, and that’s not a good reason to go back I know, but I do really have a heart for all the people I worked with, we were really like a family and I miss that atmosphere so much. I'm not sure what Colorado has in the way of HOPs so that might not be too cool...also not sure what exactly the school sitch looks like out there...plus I definitely need some dang friends that are my age, and not to be biased or anything, but I prettymuch prefer the friends I already have. I'm sure there's cool people other places in the world, but maybe like Brandon and Justin they are supposed to just flock here to me...(lol, I know that’s not true, but it's worth a try). I know I'm supposed to go to Colorado sometime, but maybe it's just not now...? Help...