I almost died...

So...I'm in Colorado at the moment. Yes, yes I am. No, I haven't moved here yet, but I am scoping it out till sunday to see if true potential lies here. So far it's looking good. All the stuffs seem to be lining up, except what happened last night. That was not my favorite experience. Denver is the "mile high" city, and they live about 800ft above that, so we are in some fricken thin air. I was doing good ever since I got in last night around 6pm, a lot better then the last time I was out here where I had a headache for 3 days straight. Ussually you get a really bad headache and way tired cause your body isn't getting enough oxygen. This morning about 5:30 or so I got up and went upstairs to get a glass of water. Once I reached the top of the stairs I felt very lightheaded, the feeling you get when you stand up to fast...and your vision goes all black and spotty. I sat down on the stairs for about two minutes trying to sit it off or something, but it only depleted a little. I got up very slowly and walked into the kitchen to the cup cabinet, about 15 feet from where I was, but I started getting way worse, to the point where I couldn't see anything, and I started to fall over. I caught myself and proceeded to sit on the floor and try not to move and overstress myelf, but I wasn't getting any better. It scared the crap out of me because every other time that has ever happened it had been for about 10 or 15 seconds at the most, but already this was about 3 minutes. I didnt know what to do because everyone else was sleeping, and I couldn't walk up more stairs and wake them, or yell for help because I could hardly breath. I concentrated on breathing very deep and trying to keep it at a steady pace. my feet get really cold, and my lips started to get very cold and almost numb too. The breathing helped enough to the point where I could stand up and get a glass of water, which was really hard for me to swallow. I stood still for probably another 3 minutes before attempting to go back downstairs, on which I almost fell again. I made it back to my bed and lied down, not before turning on the light to see if I looked like death or if there was still blood in my face. Mostly there wasn't, and I probably looked better then I did the few minutes before I could get used to the light enough to see myself. I layed down scared poopless that if I went to sleep I was going to get even less oxygen cause you breath shallow when you sleep, and I was deathly afraid that I may at some point get brain damage from blacking out. If I blacked out I don't know how long you can stay that way without having permenant damage done to yourself, or even if that could happen at all. As far as I was concerned that was the closest thing to death I have felt, at least as far as I can remember at this point. Hopefully that won't happen again. I still feel a little light headed, but I think I'm fine. Thanks for the concern, heh. Maybe that doesn't sound so scary to you, but seriously now, being in a strange place by yourself and not being able to breath, see, or stand on your own strength makes you feel extremely helpless and I thought for sure it was gonna keep getting worse and I was gonna black out and get brain damage or go into shock or something...

Anyway, I had prettymuch decided that I was going to go with the kids program until last sunday at the Kershaw factory sale. My dad called me while we were there, and he asked if I had given any real concideration to going. I said "yeah, but..." and he proceeded to tell me that it would still be a good idea reguardless and fill me in on details I didn't know of. Here's the rest of the story: I get to live here for free, with free use of a vehicle. They will give me free reign over decoration of the house, so I can get practice being an interior designer, and I get my very own room and bathroom. I only will have to work about 4 days a week, and I have the ability to get another job during the day if I want. And I can even go home a week every two months. Also I can go with my aunt probably twice to wherever I want. She flies international so I can go to China, Germany, Japan, or Australia...ooo. And even with all the benefits she still will pay me a grand a month...tax free!

They found a church that they think I will like, and if I don't they said I can wander around for one as much as I want. The kids already love me, and they want me to be the one that they hire. There is a drama club or something that they said I could get involved in if I want. They don't care how long I stay as long as I give a month notice before I leave. So at this point I'm thinking of moving here until the end of August. I don't have to start work until January 9th or 20th, so I got a while. However, if I want to come out the first week of January, they are taking a family vacation to China and they said I am more then welcome to come. I'm not sure about that part but its not out of the question. So I will see you all when I get back to P-town and hopefully I will have some good pics to show you.

Btw, I want to see The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, so y'all better not go without me!!!